With the passing of Charlie Cat, I'm once again thinking about how much I miss Carin, and how hard it is to make friends. I don't know if the challenge is my age, my stage, or life in general.
When
Ariel Cat and Sandy Dragon died, I reached out to Carin, who expressed
just the right amount of sympathy and compassion. With her death over a
year ago, there is still that hole.
A
couple of days later I told our cat sitter, who was sympathetic. I told
a couple of other people (one who still has not gotten back to me), but
there is no ONE person I wanted to reach out to talk about my feelings.
Don and Ashley were also mourning, and we talked about Charlie. I long
for someone fresh to talk to.
As
we go through the struggles of the college search, I keep thinking
about how Carin and I should be going through this together. Reminding
each other about deadlines. Encouraging each other to look in new
directions or at different schools. I don't necessarily need a friend
whose child is at the same stage (though that would be nice), I'm really looking for a friend who always replies to my messages and who opens
herself up to share bits and pieces of her life with me. Husbands,
daughters, and parents can't always be my emotional support. There is
nothing like having a best friend.
Writing
this helps. I've been bottling up my feelings for too long. I continue
to pray for a new best friend.
Reach out if you are seeking one, too.
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